what is ____________

all your clothes off and standing very still
opening your hand to reveal a dead bird
sores on your mouth
ankles swishing under a long skirt
hairy armpit
the shelf above the jeans
telling what you did to your wife
being laughed at by the kids in school
your journal read by your lover
reading your lover's journal
a blush on your cheeks
talking too fast
truth out, finally
silence
emotional collapse
utter calm
resolution of the problem
freedom to proceed
freedom to stay
nothing, emptiness